SENT: 12:20 PM I know, Ma'am. Hard decisions and casualties always happen in a war. Brother Hikaru checked up on me as well last night to check if I was blaming myself for what happened to Kaz. If I had some notion in my head that if I'd been there with him I could've changed how things went. I told him truthfully, Ma'am, that I didn't. Those were Coffins. And I'm not on the level of Brother Wolf or Brother Seer.
Still, these kids, my Blademates, they're special to me. I will endeavor to be better to avoid any possibility of re-occurrence. I have no "destined hero" delusions. Just good old soldier training that believes skill and preparation always help. Even in the slightest, most unnoticeable ways. At least I know I'll have tried my best. They deserve my best.
I admit I'm hardheaded, Ma'am, but not as hardheaded as people would think, I believe.:)) It just takes time to hammer it in. Getting thrown back into a situation akin to how life was before Netsach, and almost losing Kaz like I've lost so many friends in the past, those are pretty big hammers.
[ He notes that last part. He laughs a bit inside. He understands their reasons and is seeing them now from less jaded lenses. It helps that he finally has the taste of normalcy in his life. He used to only have wars and missions, and life outside of those was just that little dream. He had one now. A real one. ]
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[ He notes that last part. He laughs a bit inside. He understands their reasons and is seeing them now from less jaded lenses. It helps that he finally has the taste of normalcy in his life. He used to only have wars and missions, and life outside of those was just that little dream. He had one now. A real one. ]